Jealousy

This entry has no pics...just another sessi meluahkan perasaan...

I want to ask you this, and please answer this honestly...

Are you a jealous person??

If someone were to ask me this, my answer would be a blunt NO!!!

But, I know deep inside that is a total denial.

The truth of the matter is...I AM...

Sometimes when you read or hear horror stories about others marriage, how there was no sign that that their spouses is having any other relations besides the one that s/he has vowed to be loyal to in front of the tok kadi, tup tup you heard that s/he is seeing someone and in the verge of getting married...

I know I may sound paranoid, but is it a sin to be too careful. I know people that knows me would say that I should be lucky to have a good man by myside, who has been pampering me and taking care of me with all his heart, however, is it wrong for me to be a little bit jealous...

I love my better half, no doubt about that and it will kill me to be apart from him, let alone if this is cause by another woman. But, a good friend of mine once told me, by having too much suspicion will also cause trouble...

I sometimes do some checks on my own, his mobile(but very rare yer) among other random checks but something hit me, if it's true, how do I handle it??

Ntahlah, I know he thinks there is nothing to be jealous about, that he loves me and I am the one and only...however, having to struggle with the insecurity on how ugly I look, how fat I look bla bla bla, it does give me a goose bump that one day he may find other woman more appealing than I am...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it when this feelings start coming........