Sad entry - after long silence

The day I decided to break my silence, that's this morning was actually another sad day.

I got the news last night my boss's mom passed away. Those who know me would know I don't handle death very well. And this death is no exception.

Before that, I would like to apologise to all my dear readers out there, my dear normalies for the long silence. Not intentional. Work has been very overwhelming, from one project to another, and followed by one big project, announced by our PM recently. Hence, the responsibility is great as well.

Will try to be more regular and I know owe the contest results. Sabar yer, ambik gambo the prizes but tak sempat. And just to give you all heads up, there will be more than one winner....

And before I end this, let's recite Al-Fatihah for Arwah....

Mourning a loss of a grandma

I wanted to really actively update my blog with so much stories this weekend...

But, I got a call around noon yesterday. My grandma whom I fondly call Wan passed away peacefully. We did not see this coming. According to my dad, she looked fine the last time he saw her a couple of days ago.

Hence, pls allow me to mourn for this great loss. I will be back once I feel better...

Bila Izrail datang memanggil

I think I have blogged about this last week. But not in great details.

My workmate lost her husband due to cancer. I knew about this early 2008, but did not share this info with anyone, she wanted it to be that way.

During the last retreat our company had in Lumut, I met her hubby and he looked ok, I thought he has been cured.

And during the wedding of Ms YK, I saw the hubby again, and he looked healthy.

And one day after work, few months back, I saw her hubby again, and he looked great!

Until few weeks ago, she called me asking for the way to seek for second opinion and I advised her accordingly. Being my nature, my character, I don't ask people about their personal stuff, unless they voluntarily share this with me.

And then this news....Very sad news indeed...

I may not have the best relationship with her, but when this happen, I felt sorry for her and her 3 small kids. My better half was quite amazed how upset I was when I hear his news, especially he knew my true feelings about her. But, I am only human. This thing skit tak banyak, effect my feelings as well, and I can't help it for shed some tears...

So here goes :

What I learnt today?

I learnt I can loose my better half just in split second and I know I cannot deal with that hence I have to be thankful to have him and the cuties around and cherish every moment with them. Not everything is about work!

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, panjangkanlah umurku dan umur suamiku, supaya kami dapat melihat anak2 kami membesar menjadi anak yang soleh dan solehah dan berjaya dalam hidup masing2. Dan sekiranya kau ingin mengambil salah satu dari kami, ambillah aku dahulu kerana aku insan yang lemah, tidak tahu bagaimana hendak mengharungi hidup tanpa suami yang aku cintai...Amin........

Loosing a husband

I just got a very sad news. A colleague of mine just lost her husband due to cancer a few hours ago. I knew this for quite sometime but as per her request, I did not share this with anyone.

Salam Takziah and let's recite Al-Fatihah for Arwah.

This blog will remain silent for the next 24 hours to mark respect for Arwah and family.

Al-Fatihah....

Let's extend our prayers.....

I'm sure you have heard of this disaster happened at Bukit Antarabangsa early this morning. If you haven't, click here.

I got a call from office around 5am informing on the situation and to check how many families do we have there. To my horror, there are 4 of my dear colleagues live there and are stuck as the only way in and out is not accessable.

The water and electricity are out. Food is limited and it's predicted the road will only be opened in 4 days time. And 3 of my colleagues are with small kids...

So far, 4 are found dead while 15 are injured.

My prayers are with them and I hope you will pray with me too....

Sad Friday Morning

I got 3 sad news last nite which of course causes this morning to be a sad Friday morning....

News No One :

While preparing the dishes for buka puasa yesterday, I got the Star New Alert. One of the greatest journalists of all time, Tan Sri A. Samad Ismail, passed away at 5.58pm at Pantai Medical Center, Bangsar. I have been following his condition this past week from K Ena and K Maria's blog. I have been a silent reader to this 2 blogs among other socio politics blog. Their blogs are thought provoking and gave a different view on how other look at the current situations. Pak Samad, as Arwah is fondly known as, lost is such a great lost to the nation. I may not know him personally or even met him, but I've read some of his writings and trust me, no one write like he did.

News No Two :

My better half told me one of his good friends in the office is diagnosed with cancer, with 99% confirm that it is cancer. She is so young, younger than me in fact. She has 2 small kids and now about 5 months pregnant. My better half met her husband and he looked so terrified with this news. And the wife is crying non stop. She was admitted yesterday for further check up. We plan to visit her after buka puasa today. I can still imagine the last Raya we went to her house and her kids running around the house looking so happy...

News No Three :

Around 8pm before we left for terawih, I got another shocking news. My ex-roomate back in college passed away due to cancer. I haven't seen her for the last 12 years and I have planned to invite my ex-collegemates to my house this raya for some sort of reunion. I guess I was a little to late. We have the same name, Liza, and in order for our friends not be confused, she is known as Liza I and I'm Liza II cause she is older than me by month.

To K Ena and K Maria, Salam Takziah on the loss of your beloved father. I've always told myself I am not ready to loose any one of my parents. I guess, I will never be ready. Al-Fatihah...

To Ayla, I am so sorry to hear the news. And I don't think I have the right to tell you I know how you feel, cause I sincerely don't. We will pray for your speedy recovery and Insyallah everything will be fine.

To the family of Liza II, my sincere Takziah. I do miss her laughter and I still remember she was singing this Ekamatra song with the lyrics " Andai diberi emas dan permata, ku pilih senyuman mu" and then she said " Aku pun akan pilih senyuman" and we will all laugh to that. She has always been the jiwang one on our group...Al-Fatihah.....

And let this be a lesson to me, you'll never know what's gonna hit you...until it finally hit you. Let's learn to be more appreciative about life and our surroundings...

Belasungkawa - Kamisah Abdul Rahman

I was early to work today, in fact very early, arrived around 5 minutes to 7. Thought can start early after a longer than usual weekend.

Had breakfast once I completed an important task and while on the way up, I received a call from my mom and she was frantic. She said something about my auntie, Embo Enab passed away.

I could not believe my ears. Did I hear the right thing? This could not be possible. I didn't know Embo was ill. She is still young...so, once I reached my room, I called my mom again, to my horror, what I heard earlier was true. We've just lost our dear auntie, real name Kamisah, known to us as Embo Enab.

My father has 18 sibblings, yes, 18 and from one father and one mother. Out of the 18, there are 4 sets of twins, my dad is one of the twin. And that's how my Embo got her calling name, from the word Kembar. Her twin's name is Kasmah but known dearly as Embo Eton.

Embo Enab was the auntie the closest to me. Before she got married, she stayed with my family and took care of us. She was a great cook, with her varieties in recipes, from her famous karipap pusing, her fluffy doughnut(even Big Apple is not even a close contender) to her home made serunding.

She got married later to a distant cousin, an arranged marriage and stayed in JB with her in laws. Due to the distance, we hardly see each other, if we are lucky maybe once a year during Hari Raya. She delivered 6 kids.

What a wife fears the most happened to her. Her husband passed away about 7 years ago after suffering from cancer. She then returned to Kuala Selangor and stayed with my grandma.

Embo Enab left 4 children, ranging from 17 years to 12 years of age. As she was a single mother, all her kids except for the youngest stayed in boarding schools. They are all high flyers in their studies, I guess they do appreciate how hard and difficult for their mother to raised them.

As for me, Embo Enab left me with a wonderful memory, a woman with a very kind and pure heart. A woman who didn't complain how difficult life is but cherish the moment even the difficult ones. A woman who made us laugh with her jokes and who serve the most delicious meals especially during festive seasons like hari raya(her rendang kerang is to die for!).

She will be dearly missed by all of us. Al - Fatihah to Arwah Embo Enab...I miss her already(sob sob)